My Innocence

Seriously, nowadays I find it very hard to express myself through blogging. :bored2: I dunno why though. Why do I always feel insecure on things that I want to write here? Looking back those years, I was able to fully express whatever I feel like expressing. I started blogging somewhere around late 2003. Yes, that was ages ago. I became active when SPM was nearing actually. I couldn’t believe myself either that I spent so much time on blogging and that’s not all. I even spent most of time in front of the computer designing layouts and making graphics instead of concentrating more on my study. Gaaahhh.. Wow, now only I realised why my mum nagged too much on how I spent my time back then. Lol~ I think I was a better blogger back then. I always had something to share with others. Not like now. You see, my recent posts are all crappy. I had so many visitors and I think my photoshop skills were even better. My first website wasn’t a personal blog actually. It was a fansite. Emma Watson fansite to be exact. I was so obsessed with Harry Potter and I thought Emma was pretty. She’s still pretty though. Even prettier nowadays. It was quite a success I think although the fansite wasn’t on a domain. I was invited to be hosted on Dreams-Garden.com. Now, if you ever heard of dreams-garden.com/~magicalemma, I was the owner! Lol~ Then, I had to close the site after almost a year since my host was closing her site as well. I didn’t bother to find another host because I lost most of my files. I wasn’t notified about the closing.

After that, I started to blog. I love blogging. But recently, I have nothing much to say online. I mean even if I do, I don’t feel comfortable to post them. Then, after SPM, I opened up another fansite. It was about one of the Simple Plan members, Sebastien Lefebvre. Guess what? It was on a domain! It was my first domain ever and I bought it myself including the webspace. Ever came across with Seb-Lefebvre.net? It was the only domain on Sebastien fansite and I was very proud of it. It was a BIG success as I had more visitors than I did when I had an Emma fansite. As time went by, I didn’t have time to maintain the fansite so I just abandoned the site till the domain expired. Gaaahhh.. After all the hard work, they all just went down the drain. So yea, it’s a looonnnngggg journey! Lol~ And here I am, being loyal to Silenteve.net for almost 2 years. Thanks to Winterwish for hosting me!

I know I know.. I don’t feel like anyone would read this very random post of mine. Gaaahhh.. Jakarta is waiting for me already. 2 more days left. I’m so not waiting for flight no. AK954. I don’t wanna fly back to Jakarta! Can I just stay here, pretty please?

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