I’m fragile
Dammit. I can’t study tonight. My mind was lingering on something that bothers me for the past few days. And somehow, I feel so sad.. 
And jealous too.. It’s a mixed feeling. Urghh.. Why am I feeling this way? I don’t have any problem. Could it probably be a mental sickness? No, I’m very much sane indeed. My heart tells me that I’m sad and my eyes tell me to cry. Dammit. 
I really don’t know the reason behind this. Okay, maybe I do know but I don’t feel like sharing it here. I don’t wanna cry. I can easily cry and currently I’m trying to refrain myself from crying. People around me have always been reminding me not to cry over ridiculous matters. They tell me not to take things seriously (I guess they meant too seriously) but to me, every single thing does matter to me. My emotion is easily disturbed and once that happens, it takes a very long time for recovery. :yuck:
Yes, I’m very fragile. Weak. Cry baby. My father has always been advising me not to let emotion takes control over me. But I just can’t! I’m more likely to get all disturbed and down when things don’t go well. When everything falls out of its place. When everything I do doesn’t seem right. And most importantly, when I accidentally do something that hurts other people and after some time, I feel guilty after realising what I’ve done. After all, it’s my fault. Well, it wasn’t something that is intentional. I would never intend to hurt anyone. It’s human nature. No one is perfect and I make mistakes too. Huhu.. Urghh! I’m sorry. I ain’t perfect. Not even close to it.
Oh man.. What am I thinking right now? I’m so confused. I feel like I’ve done something bad but at the same time, I feel upset and hurt too. Very deep down inside. Can anyone understand me? No. They can never understand me. No one can. Yes I know. I’m weird. I’m different.
Blahhhh!! I better stop now. It’s pointless to keep arguing. Utterly pointless. :bored2:
Ps. Sorry for being so depressed and all.
March 15th, 2008 at 12:31 am
Mira, crying is not a sign of weakness. it’s just an act of showing your emotions. don’t think too much. look at the bright side.
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March 15th, 2008 at 10:33 am
I guess so.. But my father thinks that I cry a lot because I’m too weak. I cry for being scolded. I even cry when anyone raises their voice a bit. You know, those are small matters but yet, I cry. I cry when I feel scared, or sad, or alone, etc etc.. Damn. I cry too much I think. It’s like crying is something that is involuntary for me. Is that even possible? IDK.
Thanks dear. Maybe I shouldn’t think too much.
I want a happy life!
March 15th, 2008 at 10:57 am
Crying is good. It improves your blood circulation, burn body fat, and helps you grow taller. lol
No really, crying is good. I cry too, and it always does a good job relieving myself from the tense. Not too much tho, as it will make you more depressed.
Just cry, and have a little conversation with God, and you’ll feel much better.
Cheer up! ^^
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March 15th, 2008 at 11:01 am
er… dh lumrah wanita dgn tangisan ni kan… anyway tu salah satu cara nk lepaskan tekanan. tp jgn la dok nangis je then tak jadi keje kan. apa2 pun life must go on. go go go
March 15th, 2008 at 7:30 pm
mira, cry is not a bad thing at all. it’s something good. it proves that ur lacrimal gland is still working
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March 15th, 2008 at 9:02 pm
lacrimal gland. lol.
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March 15th, 2008 at 10:44 pm
LOL @ huy ming’s comment.
and mira, don’t cry too much or your enzymes in your tears will bring damage to your eyes. try to think of the funny sides of most things. like, say when you are scolded, try to focus on the person’s mouth and see how he/she moves her mouth and you might spot some spits out of it. or observe her nose and try to think of an object that might resemble his or her nose. laugh it off in your head. hopefully, you can’t cry when you do that.
and dont forget to put on a sorry face while you are at it. hahaha.
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March 15th, 2008 at 11:51 pm
aloloh sis mira..
dunt be sad hokeyh~~
meh sini Anysz blanje ABC
nak?
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March 16th, 2008 at 12:26 pm
MK: Haha..
You got me all laughing. If crying really does all that, I would cry every single day. I’m too fat and short. 
Indeed, I feel much better now. :happy:
Anyway, thank you for your advice. You’re much more mature than I am even though I’m older than you.
ahib0205: Huhu.. sy je kot satu2nye wanita yg menangis terlebih2. Haha.. :hehe: Yeah, life must go on! Yeahhh!!
You’re so funny la. Thank you dear. You made my day! I love you! Hehe.. :happy:
huy ming:
Aisyah: Whoa. Really? I didn’t know that. :hehe: I better stop crying then. My eyes hurt everytime after I cried. The next day, I will catch a cold. If the cold doesn’t resolve in the next few days, I can get asthma attack. Whoa! Crying isn’t good for me!! :hehe:
LOL! That’s a very interesting tactic! It’s just that I find it very hard to hide those kinds of thought. I’d definitely laugh straight away when I find something funny. Or maybe not. My friends said that I’m quite “lumpy” sometimes coz I usually laugh like a few seconds later than I should do. :hehe:
Anysz: Hehe.. Dah tak sad2. Dah okay.. Nak belanja? Waahh.. nakkk!! Haha.. Tapi skrng ade cold. Kena tunggu baik dulu la.
March 18th, 2008 at 11:46 pm
Dammit. I can’t study tonight. My mind was lingering on something that bothers me for the past few days. And somehow, I feel so sad..
And jealous too.. It’s a mixed feeling. Urghh.. Why am I feeling this way? I don’t have any problem. Could it probably be a mental sickness?
No, you don’t have any problem. All you need is 5 minutes to push the spacebar and arrow key. That’s what I always did. “Adakah korang seperti aku?”
Trust me!
March 19th, 2008 at 2:53 pm
Haha.. I was confused when you said that. I was thinking “Why do I need to do that?” Lol~ I like playing games but it usually does not really help. I prefer listening to the music and just relax. Do nothing.
March 19th, 2008 at 11:15 pm
huu.. xero bg 15 minit tuk nangis puas puas.. pastu jgn nangis lagi eh..
nape nak nangis nih? huhu..
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March 20th, 2008 at 4:01 pm
15 minit? Tak cukup kot. Haha~
Takde la.. Tak nangis dah. Hari tu, emosi tak stabil. Dah ok da nih.. 