Dammit. I can’t study tonight. My mind was lingering on something that bothers me for the past few days. And somehow, I feel so sad.. And jealous too.. It’s a mixed feeling. Urghh.. Why am I feeling this way? I don’t have any problem. Could it probably be a mental sickness? No, I’m very much sane indeed. My heart tells me that I’m sad and my eyes tell me to cry. Dammit. I really don’t know the reason behind this. Okay, maybe I do know but I don’t feel like sharing it here. I don’t wanna cry. I can easily cry and currently I’m trying to refrain myself from crying. People around me have always been reminding me not to cry over ridiculous matters. They tell me not to take things seriously (I guess they meant too seriously) but to me, every single thing does matter to me. My emotion is easily disturbed and once that happens, it takes a very long time for recovery.

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